Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Who pressed the reset button?

I've been busy sleeping and doing mostly nothing in the past few days. Even last week I was stagnant waiting for a non-existent important call from an employer. Too bad, they really had my hopes up. Hay... Nakaka-baliw talaga pag nasa bahay ka lang. In my case that is fact, so as much as possible i visit my friends & other people. I almost turned monstrously unstable last week.

Anyway, I decided to join back with 24/7. We start training on the 24th this month. All I need to do now is just submit my requirements and do a medical exam before training starts. I have everything done except the medical exam coz I ain't free from my cursed coughing yet. I need to be better to pass the medical. Hay... I can't believe I'm back where i friggin' started, 9 months completely wasted it's major-ly frustrating. Oh well, better get up & prove something now before my time is runs out.

A few good news is I've decided to quit smoking, step-by-step my own way. =) My first step was to switch from Reds to Lights. It's only been a few days but smoking paper got my cough down a bit, hah, it's a miracÖl. I'm already getting somewhere right after switching. Second step is gradually lower my usage, maybe 5 sticks or lower per day. This can be a challenge especially now that I kinda wanna smoke every hour or something. Third step, learn how to control the withdrawal symptoms...

  • dizziness, depression
  • feelings of frustration, impatience, and anger
  • anxiety, irritability
  • sleep disturbances, including having trouble falling asleep and staying asleep, and having bad dreams or even nightmares
  • trouble concentrating, restlessness, headaches, tiredness
  • increased appetite - this is what concerns me most... sana appetite for love and sex nalang.
Weird, I already have most symptoms even before i wanted to quit....?!?!?!

Fourth Step, stay away from smokers this one I don't know yet. One thing is for sure though I can't just quit & go cold turkey I'd probably die. In my 10 years of being a smoker I've never tried to quit, so I wish my sanity well now that i want this to happen. I'll figure everything out soon...