Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Bothered

This week feels different. it's so slow, depressing & sad. Last night, from a TV series, a guest star quoted: "You're miserable for no reason at all" somehow that really got me. Why am i sad anyway? Why do I care what others think? Why do I feel frivolous to others?

Sometimes I don't feel accepted by people, specially those who I want to be recognized with. I tell myself it's not important but it is, to me it is. Acting stupid is really getting to me, now I can't be taken seriously even when I am.

It's Elmer's birthday today. He blogged yesterday that he's seeing someone, that this guy is different, not just a pretty face and quoted "he has something between his ears". Elmo do you really have to say that? when im pretty sure before Jaime you were with me! Bwisit

I want recognition, yes, maybe thats what ive been looking for all these years. Fucking recognition and damn respect.

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Friday, January 19, 2007

U-turn

I don't know what i am doing wrong these past few days but i am getting bigger. Jazz doesn't think so but i feel so.

I'l try dieting again, cut down on my rice intake. Go back eating a meal & snack a day until I get back on track.

I must get thinner soon, sayang mga bagong damit

Gym starts Sunday!

I wish Jazz & Worf can go with me on my first day... ayokong pumitik

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Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Happy Sad Happy

the past week had been wonderful


I've been waking up early and eating quite well, overall im really happy


Gym starts this Sunday, im excited and quite anxious about it.


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"Sacrifices are necessary in order to achieve peace"


My so called obsession for Perry has literally diminished to almost none I'm so glad that's over


But I'm worried that my plan may have permanent consequences


but hopefully my goodbye's means more hellos in the future!


Starting these hello's with a certain Karl


He texted me today saying i gave him my number yada yada yada


hmmn...


evil schemes against moi? interesting moment


Coincidences are sometimes not very believable


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Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Bugger

Something is off & I know it's me.


Worf woke up at 5:30am and she might've seen something. It's been happening everyday for a week.


It's embarassing if ever...


?!? kainis !?!


It's only been 11 days

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Wednesday, January 03, 2007

2007

Another year has past...



I have a feeling 2007 will be nicer.



I hope that my gut feel is right so I am taking my hopes up in the sky.




What's off is I completely forgot to make a new year resolution. I usually make one but this time I didn't/forgot to. Probably for the good so I won't get disappointed if ever I couldn't make it come true. Less is more.



This year I will make lesser goals and try to be better at I do and will do. Stop dreaming and cease all my rantings about things I don't have. It's simply just better not to expect much from me. If something is meant to be mine then It will find me.



Hope it will be a HAPPY 2007



HAPPY new year to me!

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