Thursday, August 31, 2006

A new day...

August is almost over and i've barely made it thru with my whatevers regarding the dorm but everythings seem to be alright. I am optimistic that everything will be back to normal once september starts 2 days from now.

the 'ber months are here & 4 months to go til I become 25 *sighs*


Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Mental screw...

I am completely flabbergasted with what is happening this week. I know it's just me but I really have no idea why i am feeling this way. I feel I am invisible to everyone. I havn't heard anything from anyone...

To make matters worse the pressure is back. Pressure in dealing with the Dorms transactions and whatevers... Later today one of my cheques will be deposited by my leasee and that leaves me only with half the money I need to pay for the rest of our monthly bills. I have 72 hours to generate 45K or we will live in darkness and eat grasshoppers again "methaporically speaking". I wish my dad can help me but he has problems of his own. My only "karamay" now is my younger sister, she helps me not financially but mentally. Thank heavens for my sis or i'd feel super alone in dealing with these problems.


Friday, August 25, 2006

One of those moments

How long have I been single?

hmmnn... *counting* more than two years.


I havn't been lucky enough i guess.

When was the last time you had sex? with whom?

not too long ago... someone I care for a lot

Why not have a relationship with that person?

It's complicated, It's better to stay where I am. Honestly I'm afraid of what things could lead to if I even try that suggestion.

You seem detained & repressed with your true feelings, why?

Again it's complicated

Alright, So what are your plans then? any new stuff in mind?

Nothing, I am happy where i am. I just have these kind of moments from time to time. But I guess sooner or later i'd have to give it a go. I need someone to really call my own without feeling anxious of the future outcome.

What are you anxious about? Does this involve your last partner in bed?

You can say that, yes he is and another guy aswell. I really don't wanna explore on that topic. If you would please? *forces a grin*

I'm sorry about that. When do you think you'll be finally venture out on a hunt for a lover? Quite frankly you seen ready for it.

I have no idea, I try not to look for it because it never works out when i do. I am hopeful that I will just bump on him soon. I'd appreciate it if will be nextweek, next month or maybe even tomorrow. Hahaha

*laughs* I agree with you on that matter. Well then thats it, I wish you all the luck. Despite the complete honestly with your answers, I admire that you can still maintain a level of mystification.

*laughs* Im glad you think so.

So.... are you going anywhere after this?

No, i'm not really in a hurry. Why?

Ohh nothing *winks*



Saturday, August 05, 2006

I'm so bad i want to grow horns & a tail

It's a friday night. What does a single, alone on a weekend gay boy do?

yeah! surf the net...

yes, i looked for a hook-up...

yes, i gave him my number and agreed to meet...

no, we did not have sex...

i felt too guilty and ditched the poor Bitch

Hope he's used to it

It's not good to see fresh meat go to waste.

Why did I do it?

I was horny

And I still am...

Damn fairies

Wish I was born straight

Upyours... anyone?


Friday, August 04, 2006

I have a huge craving!

I so want some of these babies... the last time i tasted them was 2 years ago
and I panic'd so i bought 3!

Cherries are my fave fruit (not the preserved ones)
Too bad we don't grow em here.


Anyone out there who has access to these devilish spawns?


Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Purah ka Ton!

I saw a friend while i went for booze
he offered his place to hang out
we talked
updated our times apart
we laughed
like were on Wari

Then you tried to kiss me
your like a brother to me
Im not even that drunk
and your not even drinking!

Your a rip
to what this world calls
I don't ever wanna see you again

Go home
sleep it off
hope you realize
what a fuck you are tonight



Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Something I hope nobody reads...

NOTE: Copied from 10@2's entry... not my original post

Let me introduce myself...
...still an hour and a half to go before i leave the office and im trying to find stuff to do to kill time. i know i still have some work to do but my brain is just so fucking tired thinking about new ideas on how to make things more interesting. that is what i do btw, i make things interesting. some for the good, some for the bad.

i decided to write about things that most people dont know about me. its like opening my own can of worms. i hope i dont scare myself with......myself.
1. im damn lazy to take a shower. i just hate it. people find it surprising evrytime i tell them coz i look "clean". *evil grin*
2. i looove white shoes. they look great on anything!!!!
3. im a GREAT liar. but i dont lie that much so thati wont feel guilty evrytime i do.
4. im TORPE. i give out obvious hints but i dont make the first move.
5. im a sucker for feminine men and masculine women. they just make the world more interesting.
6. i have a very short attention span. this entry is starting to bore me. *grins*
7. i swing both ways but i just find men very appalling most of the time. they are just this group of creatures who are controlled by a small protruding meat in between their legs. but some of them look so hot that i dont mind sometimes. (fuck!!! there you go)
8. i love foreplay more than the actual deed. need i say more?
9. i daydream of having my huge billboard along EDSA wearing nothing but skimp yundies. wag na mag-react. nakikibasa ka lang eh.
10. it will take forever for me to introduce myself. coz im complicated as hell.

i hafta stop this and smoke....
...coz doing this is making me tense.
Im miss you bitch... say you miss me too? lie to me... lie to me ....